GULDAK, TESSERA Feb 14, 2015 13:26:58 GMT -5
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Tessera Lily Guldak
The most important quality of Tessera's to note is how physically fit she is, even for a shifter living in the Menagerie. She spends hours and hours just running (or flying, depending on her form) or lifting heavy objects she finds to build muscle. This isn't because she cares about her looks, but mostly to keep herself sane. This ritual stops her from thinking for a little while, and considering her past, this undoubtedly helps her. Although her form is slim, almost pretty, she covers it up with baggy clothes or sheets she finds, stuff that doesn't fit quite right. She has to wrap a lot of her outfits around herself because they aren't quite a shirt, or not quite pants. This shows how much she doesn't actually care about her appearance, and that she works out only for spiritual reasons.
However, the one thing she prides, cares for, and values the most is her hair. She refuses to cut it except trimming the ends – it falls to her waist in human form now – and a result, it is a little matted, ratty, and damaged in places from life in the Menagerie. It's frazzled and difficult to clean, even though it's stick-straight, but no matter how angry or upset she gets at her hair getting in the way, she doesn't touch it except in attempts to clean it or push it out of her face. This confuses most of her acquaintances, because of how insecure and spontaneous she is, as well as her unkempt appearance. It seems odd that a tomboy like Tess would value her hair so much, but she does, and she will go crazy if someone so much as touches it.
Tessera is something of an enigma, mostly because of how volatile her emotions are. She is very quick to transfer to any given emotion: joy, sadness, anger, whatever – and she can change back at anytime. What's most dangerous about Tess is her anger. She can forgive just as fast as she gets angry, but the problem is getting her to listen or see reason in time before she does something dangerous or stupid. Tessera is not above screaming, fighting, or just generally exploding at the dumbest of things: she has mauled someone over grabbing her hair before. When it comes to angering Tess, it is best to either be prepared or simply get out of the way.
Tess isn't well acquainted with happiness. Her memories stop shortly before being captured by Keepers, and this frustrates her. She's well aware that her mind isn't entirely stable, with her volatile emotions and seemingly random insecurities, and she wishes to believe she wasn't always like this and that Keepers inflicted this sort of madness upon her. However, proof is lacking, and as a result, Tess is often mopey and filled with dark emotions. This makes her a creature of solitude, even though she has joined the CarnaRing for safety. She craves someone who can understand her, but she doesn't believe that person exists. So she just survives, working out and serving the CarnaRing as necessary, and hoping against hope that somehow, she'll get some sort of closure: either from her Ring, from someone else, or maybe from her memories returning one day.
Tessera was born to humble beginnings: a poor woman who did not have the means to take care of a child was her mother, an Irish woman who gave into one night of passion. She did not even attempt to raise Tess, even though she had no ill will towards the child, and gave her up for adoption. No one knew Tess's father was a shifter, not even her mother. Tess was placed in many foster care homes before landing on the right side of Lady Luck's favor, it would seem. A wealthy couple, well established in the States, and well known, adopted her, unable to have children of their own. Tess lived her juvenile years in bliss, but naturally, this wouldn't last long.
Tess's first transformation was thankfully on her own, inside her room while her parents were gone, but it scared her to no end. She knew she was adopted – her parents were quite honest with her on that front – but she didn't realize what not knowing her true heritage could mean for her. She kept them private, but when Tess's parents signed her up for school after being home-schooled for so long, she panicked. She begged to continue to be home-schooled, raised as a hooligan, anything, but her parents were firm. They both were well-educated, and they insisted their daughter would be the same way. They thought Tess was being difficult just for the sake of being difficult, as many children have no interest in school. Tess was able to slide under the radar for the first year, but she was found out when she had blood drawn to test for disease.
The night she was seized was chaotic, unclear, and even the Keepers aren't completely sure what happened. The monstrously large house was completely dark, and there was quite the fight. Tess's father was killed trying to protect his daughter, not understanding why these people were after Tess, and her mother was tied up to prevent her from doing anything as rash. In the struggle, Tess hit her head on a wall hard enough to be knocked unconscious, and they took her away to the compound.
What's important to note is that Tess doesn't remember any of this. When Tess came to in the compound, her memories were fuzzy at best. She had no idea where she was, or how she got there, which gave the Keepers an idea. They could manipulate the part of her brain where memories were stored. They experimented on her until her memories were completely gone, except for one: the one thing she remembers about her previous life is her mother combing her hair with a five-pronged comb, a pearl on top of it, singing softly.
When she was let loose in the Menagerie, it wasn't immediately clear where she belonged. Her anger made her too violent for the Fallen, too unpredictable for the Fulsi, and she didn't want to go rogue. The Carna was the only choice, even though she doesn't know enough about her life or herself to be confident enough to ally with anyone. She concentrates on survival, just like everyone else, but she hopes against hope that maybe, she can remember something and get some sort of closure.